He's Coming Home

Can it possibly be true? Am I dreaming? If so, please do not wake me up! I am so excited. I can barely contain my little girl screeches when I think about it. I will have my husband back, our kids will have their daddy finally! It is crazy to think that we will be a whole family. World watch out, TEAM HALPHEN is about to reunite!!

March 7, 2006~Oh my babies, my wonderful babies!!!

Well, my babies are no longer babies. Emele is pulling herself up on everything, and can go anywhere in the house that she wants to. She can even go up and down the step. Cameron is the most wonderful big brother ever. He is growing up way to quick. I have finally got to the point that I don't want to wash all the little hand prints off of my slider, I am scared I will never see them again. He is incredibly funny as well. His memory is way to good for a 2 year old. I mentioned going to my moms on Monday, said something like we might go down on Friday, on Friday morning Cameron comes to his dad and says, I'm going to see Papa and Grandma today after work. He knew that it was Friday, and remembered what I had said 4 days prior. he doesn't miss a thing unless you are telling him no to sweets. He will willingly pick up his room, put his clothes in the hamper, brush his teeth 6 times a day, he is just to funny. Well that is all for now. My children bragging rights are at a stand still for the night. Take care Y'all!!

August 23, 2006~Saying good byes?

So no mater what you are going to come to a point in your life where you have to let go of someone, something, or just say good-bye... It seems that this just happens so often in my life. And shouldn't you be able to say good-bye before you have to let go? It is really sad to say, but whenever I see a number from a friend back home come across my caller ID I get this gut wrenching feeling deep in my stomach. I know that something horrible has happened. So for all the old crew to get back together, someone has to die? Why is that? I wish I could just keep all of my friends safe, take all the drugs, alcohol, and pain away from them, but then where would they be, where would I be? In the case of Brian I would like to think that he is in a better world then the one he was living in, but who am I to say? I just hope that he is happier where he is now! He will be missed, as long as everyone else we have lost. If you are reading this, please take a minute right now to remember all those you have lost and their impact on your life, no think of the last time you called that old friend from back home or visited them, is it about time? With all my love and deepest prayers: RIP Brian!!

November 18, 2006~Wake me when it is over!

I love you Joe!
Okay, so it has been a little over a week since the news came and I still do not know quite how to react. I have to say that it really came as a surprise, and maybe it will hit home a little more when I go to the memorial. He was more like a brother to me than an uncle. He lived with my family and I for so many years, and was always around when I was growing up. I know that I will miss him, but it has been so long since I have seen him. Over the past few years I feel like we had grown apart. There were a lot of choices he had made that I could just not come to terms with. I was angry with him for his choices and selfishness. I really wanted to see him grow up and be a father. I wanted to tell him that he was pushing so many people away who cared so much... I will regret that I was never able to do this. I will also love the memories of who he used to be. I hope that everyone can look past the faults and love the man that he truly was. He will be very missed. I want everyone who knew him to know that he is in a better place where he can not feel pain any more. I know that he would want us all to smile and be happy for all the good memories we have of him. I love you Uncle Joe, I always will, and you will always be a part of me!

February 5, 2007~Moving...

So it really became official today. I thought the For Sale sign in the front yard would make me realize that we were actually moving. Nope. That affected me a little... Then 30 mins later we get our first phone call to show the house. What do I do? FREAK OUT!!! Oh my gosh. There are people coming and going all the time, I am constantly cleaning, and working on this damn house. So it didn't really have time to sink in I guess. Then we plan our pack out. I start freaking out a little bit more, as it nears I freak out even more. Then today, the movers get here and within hours my whole house is in boxes. They just packed my whole life up in these plain old brown boxes and tomorrow they will load them into a big 'ol truck and haul it all away.Where does this leave my family? Well Joey will be staying with a friend of ours until mid-March, while I am at my moms with the kids. Then in March Joey will follow the kids and I up to Northport. From there he will head to Virginia for a 6 month school, and I will reside at my dads with the kids.I am not sure if I am just extremely overwhelmed with all the moving and selling and change, upset about being away from joey for 6 months, lost without my own house, worried how the kids will react to all of the above... I just have so many emotions right now!

July 27, 2008~She is 3

Our baby girl is officially three years old now. I really wish her daddy could be here for this. He missed it last year, this year and possibly next year. She has grown so much. She is quite the young lady, and the girliest of girly girls I have ever known. Not sure where that comes from, but I love it. She is a princess in our eyes, and loved greatly. I am so thankful for her and what she brings to me every day. Just how happy and free spirited she is. I learn so much from her, and I am supposed to be her leader and inspiration. To think that I once never wanted a daughter, and now the thought of not having her is the scariest thing ever. I love you Emele ZayLynn! Happy Birthday!

July 30, 2008~My life as of now...

I am so incredibly happy! The only thing that could make it better is if Joey were not deployed. The kids are the light of my life. I have amazing friends. I have had some serious motivation to get back in shape. I want to go on a cruise, and Joey says I have to wear a two piece. So I have some work ahead of me so I will not make everyone else jump ship. Cameron is such a little man. He is a great mommy's helper, and so good for me. He teaches me something new everyday. Patience is a big one he has taught me. He is a mini Joey. I look at him and see his daddy in all he does and his actions. He is growing into such an amazing person, and I am happy to be a part of that.Emele is 3 as of 3 days ago. How fast they grow. She has shown me that it is all right to wear pink and be a girly girl. She has brought out the girly side of me. She is so beautiful in appearance as well as a person. She has the ability to make any one smile, and you can't help but feel her radiate.Joey, although he is on deployment, gives me so much support. He has made it possible for me to be a stay at home mommy, and get my degree. He loves me and makes sure that I am happy. He is my knight in shining armor. I could not ask for a better man on my team. GO team HALPHEN!!I just finished my AA in Accounting and will begin my BA on the 5th. I am finally achieving my education goals. I could not have done this with out all of the support from my family and friends.This move to Cali, was a huge adjustment for me. I had to leave Robin and Logan behind. I thought I was going to go crazy many times. I miss Oak Harbor friends, my own home, the beauty. But I have made the most amazing friends here. People who understand me and what I go through as a Navy wife every day. They are my rock, I will not name names, I would hate to forget anyone, but you all know who you are.Then there is Cali. I just spent the evening at the beach. We played in the surf, buried Cameron, watched the dolphins play in the sunset... It is just so beautiful here. If you made it through all that, thank you. I just had to get out there how wonderful life really is!